Disadvantages of speaking too much....mindlessly

1. People tend to think you are very clear when it comes to expressing your feelings.

    Problem: The things that go on in your heart never come to the limelight. 

2. At times the serious things that you say are ignored as a joke. At times no one listens to you because usually      you keep speaking trash

3. People who know you very less think you have no right to be angry or to feel bad

4. This one is serious. You end up unintentionally hurting some people who are not your type. You feel bad that you ended up hurting someone whom you liked when all your life you have been trying to hurt people you do not  like but have been unsuccessful in those attempts.

Disclaimer: These reflect my personal thoughts so don't mind if they do not match yours 

MUSINGS OF ANOTHER WANNABE IDIOT

3 Idiots actually got me thinking. What are my goals…what do I actually aim to become…Why am I doing all these that I am actually doing right now…Is it true that I actually wanted to go in for the so called general line …English hons according to me and economics hons according to my mother or am I just saying that Literature was my calling just to escape accepting the fact that I do not know ….still don’t know at the age of 22 what I actually want from my life. Is all this thinking just because I want to hide all my flaws or failures behind the illusion that I was just pushed into being what my parents wanted me to be? Am I really made to do one of those big things or am I just an ordinary mortal who at times keeps dreaming …day or night being immaterial…dreams and dreams but never ever wakes up from those dreams and the deep slumber that he or she is in and go, march forward and fulfill those dreams or is it so that I just don’t have any dreams and I dream based on what the society thinks is right. Because honestly thinking I never actually did or think anything out of the box or did something which made people sit up and take notice. Well why am I bringing people in. I should be talking about me and my dreams. But what to do a human being is a social animal or so it was written in Class 1 science book. Why is it so that whenever I seriously sit down and think what am I GOING TO DO WITH MY LIFE….WHY WHY DO I SIMPLY GO BLANK.

We all say or at least some of my friends say, and now it is the in thing or so I think it is….to talk about why are parents pushing their children to become what they, the parents want their kid to be. I admit there are some geniuses as the movie rightly pointed out like Sachin and Lataji who are just exceptionally talented, who have that within them and they know what they want since their childhood. But even though it’s a bitter truth a vast majority of us is just aimless and ordinary, who if left on its own most probably won’t do anything worth mentioning or I don’t know maybe they would. Actually I personally don’t know anyone who has been left to do what he or she wishes in the true sense. Is it worth taking the risk and letting the kids explore and find for themselves what they really love and do that? Or will it become too late and the kids would have gone haywire. I really don’t know. And now, sadly I have once again gone into my BLANK mode. 

Ahhh

Oh d pleasant wind and the swaying trees

The shining moon filling the ground with its silver beams

The soft feeling of your hair being gently blown away

Caressing your face...bringing a smile...n giving a feeling

Did this happen sometime earlier too

Oh d deja vu thing

You think oh ya I feel it happened

When....when ...when

hmmmmmmmm......

N then suddenly nothing matters

You forget that it happened before too

The wrinkles on your forehead disappear

Your eyes widen up a bit more

You feel like taking in the view as much as you can

You live in the moment

And...

Dream...

You start dreaming

You dream about imaginary situations...real situations made up the way you want them to be

Dream dream and dream

Fame, love, respect, power, grandeur, lights, colors, beauty.................

Breath in the fresh air with the tinge of the smell of fresh flowers

Inhale and let go

Stop caring about people, their opinions and dream

Slowly but steadily

Dreams change to passions

Hidden wishes

Things you always wanted to do but then ....never did

Traits of people you always wanted to adopt but....

Things you always wanted to say but you never could

Slowly you make up your mind

Slowly you decide

Slowly you come back

To the real world

The breeze is no longer blowing your hair away

You are no longer gazing out into the wilderness like a kid

You are not smiling

But

You are at peace

Peace with yourself and the world

You feel empty inside

The grudges held within have been washed away

Its all clear

Ready for the new challenges

Ready to face them strongly and happily

You are set to march forward with big happy leaps

Win or lose ....you are ready to try n try hard

Ahhhhhh.....You are ready to rock

Move On

When I saw the Fast Track ad for the first time my reaction was Gawd hw cheap & crazy can ppl b. But now coming to think of it, the theme "MOVE ON" is so very relevant. Its like you just have no other option. The same you move on to another maths problem when you can't solve one in 12th class you just have to move on in life.

There is just no point in holding on to things no matter how good or bad they are. Even happiness is a time period. If we have to actually live life we cannot just remain in a moment that happened a few days or months or years back. Though I agree when you are very sad and feel like nothing is going right in your life, there is NO harm in looking back and making yourself happy and successful by thinking about a past achievement. Everyone is allowed a few chocolates at times but as we all know too many make you fat or at least they aren't very nutritious supplements. In the same way thinking about a past mistake just to make sure you do not redo it is fine. Dats it ....just felt like writing n did it :D...u see marketing guys also have brains, its not just talking skills and all gas :)

Life and its "I cant find a word"

"The world is a stage and we all are actors"

This is one of the lines of the famous play The Merchant of Venice. From the time I read that play, I had loved this line. For me it symbolized, the drama, the adventure, the passion that I longed and still long for in my life. It had given me a ray of hope at that time because for me a stage was a place where in the end everything ends well. Its just like the dialogue in Om Shanti Om, if all isnt well, to picture abhi baki hai.

At that point of time I had never realized that all is well wala funda works only for the hero and the heroine. Even then there are tragedies like Romeo and Juliet. I had never thought that at some point of time my life will actually feel like hell and the worst part will be that I will be completely helpless and unable to get myself out of that situation. All my thoughts had revolved around all the praises I was dreaming about. All the envy that I wanted to see in the eyes of my peers and others. All the romance that was in store for me. Never ever had the thought crossed my mind, that I will be the one who will be envying others and wishing I was in her place. That I will be the one saying congrats and not the one replying with a sweet Thank You. Now I realize what I dreamer I was and I guess still am.

Slowly as time progressed I faced huge dissapointments, learnt how to cope with them successfully pretending to be OK with all that was happening with me. I am not complaining that everything that happened with me was bad. I did get the chance to say Thank You for the wonderful parents I have and other small but significant things. But then I was not able to get a lot of things without which I had never thought that I will have to live on. I again admit I was unrealistic, but then a person never changes. Parivartan in a huge scale happens only in Mohabattein. For us we do change but its just a mechanism that evolves to help us deal with the current scenario. Deep down, actually just below the surface coating we still remain the same individual we were when we were born. So even though on the exterior I told confidently that I don't dream big and do not care about the results deep down I think I still dreamt big, still thought what will I do if this does not happen and all that shit. Even though I accepted every failure gracefully (actually my friends feel that I do not ever worry about my results and that I am very strong :P; maybe I am, who knows) I sat numb for days and at the end of all that still started with the impractical belief that everything from now onwards will go on smooth. I never got the sense to think that this might not happen even though I had the habit of thinking that everyone else will perform better than me. Maybe I always put too much responsibilities on God's shoulders which he found too heavy to bear at times and let me down. I always thought that even though I won't be the best, I will get what I want though all my life I never get the thing that I desire for madly.

I don't know how to finish this. Actually I can't finish it off because I will still continue to behave like this. All I can say is hopefully this time round I will try not to be over ambitious, I will try not to desire for the best; because maybe that is what you my dear God, want me to do. All I can say is I will try my best, but no matter how hard I try I cannot guarantee you complete success as Its you who never gave the confidence to guarantee 100% success with full conviction.

:):(:):(:):(

Its not the 1^st tym dat m seeking a godfather

Its not the 1^st tym dat m depressed

Its also not the 1^st tym dat m homesick

But its d 1^st tym when m realizing things aren't in my hands

No matter how hard I try, some things do go wrong

No matter how interested I m, ppl still think m jst too sleepy

No matter how much I try talking sense, I still end being kiddish or foolish

No matter how hard I try…

Its d 1^st tym when I actually don’t know the way out

And its one of the umpteenth times when I badly need you