MUSINGS OF ANOTHER WANNABE IDIOT

3 Idiots actually got me thinking. What are my goals…what do I actually aim to become…Why am I doing all these that I am actually doing right now…Is it true that I actually wanted to go in for the so called general line …English hons according to me and economics hons according to my mother or am I just saying that Literature was my calling just to escape accepting the fact that I do not know ….still don’t know at the age of 22 what I actually want from my life. Is all this thinking just because I want to hide all my flaws or failures behind the illusion that I was just pushed into being what my parents wanted me to be? Am I really made to do one of those big things or am I just an ordinary mortal who at times keeps dreaming …day or night being immaterial…dreams and dreams but never ever wakes up from those dreams and the deep slumber that he or she is in and go, march forward and fulfill those dreams or is it so that I just don’t have any dreams and I dream based on what the society thinks is right. Because honestly thinking I never actually did or think anything out of the box or did something which made people sit up and take notice. Well why am I bringing people in. I should be talking about me and my dreams. But what to do a human being is a social animal or so it was written in Class 1 science book. Why is it so that whenever I seriously sit down and think what am I GOING TO DO WITH MY LIFE….WHY WHY DO I SIMPLY GO BLANK.

We all say or at least some of my friends say, and now it is the in thing or so I think it is….to talk about why are parents pushing their children to become what they, the parents want their kid to be. I admit there are some geniuses as the movie rightly pointed out like Sachin and Lataji who are just exceptionally talented, who have that within them and they know what they want since their childhood. But even though it’s a bitter truth a vast majority of us is just aimless and ordinary, who if left on its own most probably won’t do anything worth mentioning or I don’t know maybe they would. Actually I personally don’t know anyone who has been left to do what he or she wishes in the true sense. Is it worth taking the risk and letting the kids explore and find for themselves what they really love and do that? Or will it become too late and the kids would have gone haywire. I really don’t know. And now, sadly I have once again gone into my BLANK mode.